HELLO HELLO, I AM SO SORRY TO HAVE ABANDONED YOU ALL FOR SO LONG. I KNOW I HAVE UPDATED HERE AND THERE BUT I HAVE MOSTLY BEEN VACANT. THIS IS A PROJECT RESURRECTING ITSELF. I HAVE BEEN INSANELY BUSY (I HATE USING THAT EXCUSE BUT IT’S NO EXCUSE TO HAVE SEPARATED FROM WORDPRESS).
i am typing in capital letters because i am SO PASSIONATE ABOUT COMING BACK! i’m going to be posting some old entries from july to now. they aren’t the best, but they are my thoughts, and they are a beautiful representation of what i’ve been feeling for the past few months.
i’m always thanking my boyfriend in these posts. he never knows. but i am always telling him thank you’s. thank you’s for driving, thank you for staying up later than usual with me, thank you for making breakfast, thank you for wiping my tears, it’s all the thank you’s. but there’s a deeper rooted metaphor. he’s everywhere. he’s my metaphor. my language. my writing. my art.
part of the reason i haven’t written as much as i have is that i’ve been so absorbed in my relationship with him. i don’t write as much as i did because he’s become my writing. i am learning to become more verbal with my feelings, which i never have been able to explore before, even though they spill out so very easily from pen to paper and fingers to keyboard.
there is so much i’ve traveled through and i have so much more to go – i can’t do everything with my boyfriend, not that i don’t want to, because i would LOVE to. but i am finding my center again, i am becoming acquainted with it, shaking hands with it, buying it some coffee (because oh my god, you guys, i have a new fascination with mochas and it’s marvelous and dandy and now i understand what it means to be caffeinated). but i am understanding my center in a different way now, seeing it from another angle, and seeing it with 20/20 vision.
i will be posting entries here and there, maybe even some posts from a couple years ago and whatnot. I APOLOGIZE FOR THE LACK OF ORGANIZATION. the order of my entries does not reflect what i may feel at the time it’s posted, but just that i find that piece of writing significant, and maybe it will teleport from my heart to yours and find a new temporary home before it roams elsewhere.
my followers, i love you. i want to dedicate stars to you and personally point them to you, but there is only one of me and i only have one life. so words and imagination will have to do for now. i love you all, happy monday.
PS. for the entries that were not written around the time that they were posted, if you haven’t noticed, on the bottom right of the entry should indicate in bold letters the date it was written :)